Social media is stressing me out..

I struggle with anxiety.
I get super anxious over things
I have panic attacks.
I overthink.
I live my life and probably, maybe, conceal it.. do I?

but until you've seen me 10 minutes before a hair appointment you have not seen the real me..

and I LOVE hair appointments!
but the thought of someone waiting for me
me holding up their time and then having to sit there for 3 hours
making small talk and unable to leave if I suddenly absolutely freak out
its like the most painful event of my existence..

So that's why I have such a love/hate relationship with social media..
(let me try and connect these dots...)

I love social media
I don't think that needs explaining, you know all the obvious reasons..
family, friends, creepin, buzzfeed.

But,
there is this other side

that totally overwhelms me

I feel anxious just looking at that screen and that's a super mild media moment.

 

I get stressed out thinking about how I post too much and then I get panicky thinking about how I post too little.

 

The blog side wants more, which is a blessing and curse..

because all the blog groups I'm a part of have shared many tips and tricks for making your blog GREAT. sometimes I just don't have the energy to make my blog that great.

I just want to post photos unedited and non staged.

write the way I write

(which is like this..)

 

my phone is binging 24/7 with blog group notifications

and as much as I want to turn off notifications..

I do want my blog to be great and I love those ladies!

so the little red dot haunts me until I open it.

 

but lets not let blogging take all the anxious blame..

 

there's the other side, my personal social media accounts

where I share too many photos

it is an addiction to share photos of your baby and dog

I swear to you, it is.

 

 

So, who cares?

no one really.

that's why I had a radical though

 

What if I deactivated my facebook?

 

what would happen?

would I still feel anxious?

would I feel like I'm missing out?

would I even last 24 hours?

 

I spend so much time mindlessly scrolling and getting distracted by all the notifications

would I get more done in real life if I took a break?

 

not sure.

not positive I would even last an hour without it.

I have so many social media friends!

whom I love!

I'm not sure I can go without..

 

 

^ example

the CBB network did a book and mug swap and the lovely Renee from See The World in Pink sent me this parcel. She nailed it! I love her!

 

but speaking of books..

I have a major collection of unreads waiting to be read!

add to the above 

Mindy Kaling

Amy Poehler

and some crazy horror story books from the writer of Gone Girl

that I'm not sure I will be able to handle because I am such a wuss..

 

I have lulu lemon clothes to send back..(so expensive, I can't let that slide. hold me accountable!)

closets to clean out

work outs to do

cooking classes to attend

tv shows to binge (The Office, Kimmy Schmidt)

hair appointments to make (see full circle! ;))

 

 

 

^ plus more of this

 

 

Talk about useless notifications tho..

this post is probably the worst

so boring

but have you ever gone social media free?

did you feel free-er??

 

I'm not going to lie to you

I will remain on Instagram because that's the happy place of social media

and I'm going to snap chat because I have a dozen people who snapped me and I need to figure out how to snap back.

and I'm probably going to miss Buzzfeed like EXTREMELY bad.

Buzzfeed Ned and Buzzfeed Kelsey are the dream team.

 

I'll probably be back in two minutes because this is a horrible idea when I can just turn off notifications and be all cool but YOLO.

 

AND FOMO.

SO MUCH FOMO ALREADY.